INTRODUCTION: Disclaimer and features. Introducing one self.ACT ONE: Much of your pain is self-chosen.ACT TWO: Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding.ACT THREE: And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy.

ACT ONE

Juanda Marasi Radja, known as Rasi, is someone who's born on 22th of January 2000 in Surabaya. More specifically, on 18.15 PM. Which bestowed him as someone with Aquarius as his sun sign, Leo as his moon sign, and Taurus as his rising sign. The idea of his name, as his father would always tell him back then, is that his father and his mother met for the first time in Juanda Airport. Being the Indonesian parents they were, they named their children (read: Rasi) after a place that was brought to them by fate.Rasi himself is always seen as someone carefree, sometimes can be so oblivious about his surroundings, which never fails to frustrate people around him. Though, most of the time, he is always lost in his thoughts. In which his mother always called him ‘a little dreamer’ when he was a kid. Being the little dreamer he is, he has always been fascinated with computers and its ‘power.’ Although, he has no degree that’s related to IT or any field regarding coding, his occupation is a hacker. He learnt all of the information that’s needed by self taught and learnt some of the skills through his connectionsHowever, his life has not always been an easy one to start with, as Kalil Gibran once said “Your joy is your sorrow unmasked. And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.”

ACT TWO

Juanda Marasi Radja, the one and only son that lasted long enough and survived the storm that passed through his family. One word to describe Rasi, it would be the word ‘wind’ itself. Just like the wind, he is always able to pass through anything he faces. At least that’s what people always knew about him. Just like the summer breeze. His presence alone is always able to make everyone feel at ease. Some of his acquaintances even refer to him as a young man who is a master of words and thoughts. Showing how he can easily please and convince other people with his words and wits.Yet, the young lad never fails to leave mysterious trails behind him. Making people curious, wanting to know more about him. But then, how strong can someone last when it comes to handling a wind that can turn into a hurricane anytime? Like a ticking bomb that is ready to explode. With all his masks always being laid out, one always has secrets that they hide so carefully, burying it, and shutting it tight that nobody will find out. And that's included Juanda Marasi Radja.

ACT THREE

The marriage between his mother and father was never really an easy one to start with. Both of them became a runaway couple for the first 3 years of their marriage, until Juanda Marasi Radja was born on 22th January 2000. Giving a little bit of hope to the tiny family that never really gets their blessing from each families' sides. Five years went by, and Rasi reached the age of five when the first thunderstorm finally hit his little family. His sanctuary. The news about his father cheating on his mother causing the warm place that he used to call home suddenly turned upside down. His father left him with his mother in their tiny house in Surabaya. He left them with nothing, but sorrow.By the age of six. Rasi never really knew nor was familiar with the word and the feeling of 'love' in his life anymore. For the next 10 years, he spent his life being a living punching bag for his mother. And all he could do was just to take it and take it and take it. He thought it, it was his only way to take away a tiny bit of pain from his mother that had always been tormented by god and its fate.When he finally reached the age of 16, instead of being welcomed by a warm hug and a simple sentence of ‘Happy Birthday to you Rasi’ being delivered to him, he was welcomed by quietness when he arrived at the doorstep of his own house. And that very same day, it was the first time he was finally able to embrace his mother’s body again. Although, her body already turning cold while still hanging on their bathroom’s ceiling. Looking like a broken rag doll. She was found dead by Rasi himself on 22th January 2016. Hanging herself, probably thinking that it is the only bravely face god and the cruel fate she has always been through in her life.By the age of 17, Rasi ran away from Surabaya. Only bringing his old clothes and an old laptop he stole when he was desperate enough wanting to move away from the city. Possibly, the only day when god decided that it was enough torment for him that day, that he was able to get away and set his feet on Jakarta.With no family. With no degree. With no money. With no purpose.Accompanying him with nothing, but the thought of death always hung so closely to his head. As if it was always clinging onto him and slowly dragging his whole body into the dark pit of depression. A dark phase where 'a maybe thought' always sounds so negative in his head.Maybe he should just end his life just like how his mother did. Maybe, he should just face god right now just so he can yell about how unfair life has always been to him. And maybe, he should not even exist at all. And maybe, it will be much easier, for him, and for his mom, who already went ahead of him facing god. And maybe...Yet, one day. As if someone special was being sent to him. To be his salvation. Greeted him with nothing but a smile painted on his visage. Even the hint of tiredness on his face cannot hide away the sweet and lovely eyes that seems can outshine the sun itself. During that special day, when it was scorching hot, with his feet buried in the sand on the shoreline of Ancol, and the smell of salt hung in the air, someone gave him a tiny bit of promise.A tiny bit of hope. A tiny bit of purpose.That maybe, maybe one day, he will know how does it feel to hug someone that would welcome him and warmly hug him back.

INTRODUCTION

DISCLAIMER: Juanda Marasi Radja is a fictional character created by #zephyr. Any similarities with any other characters or any real person are purely coincidental. The character of Juanda Marasi Radja is work of fiction and purely for roleplaying purposes. Please be aware, the storyline contains the mention of cheating, suicide, suicidal thoughts, and depression as its major plot. The character should not be taken seriously as a fact regarding NCT Dream’s Lee Jeno.FEATURES: Juanda Marasi Radja is portrayed by NCT Dream’s Lee Jeno, who was born 23th of April 2000, in South Korea. On 24th of 2016, Lee Jeno officially debuted as one of the NCT Dream’s members.